He who rules over the little mind rules over the entire universe.
I know that it is so My Lord, but I am just an ordinary human being and prone to all human follies and weaknesses. I have no ambition to rule over the universe but I definitely want to win over my mind , for, all problems in life have their roots nowhere else but in the mind alone.
When the mind is weak all the follies and weaknesses come to the surface, and I am helpless during those times when the mind rules over me ,though for a wee little time. But a few moments of freedom of will to the little mind is enough to create havoc and lead to anger, doubt in one’s faith and the one one has faith in, frustration and a lingering pain in the subtlest level as if the soul were in misery.
With Your Grace a little awareness of and a power to discriminate between the two states of mind has set in. Hence I wish I could control this mind moment-to-moment.
The reason for my intense desire to have a say on the little mind is not because I am in a hurry for reaching any higher realm. It’s only because I want to save my mind from its reactions to people who have an adverse effect on it ,and to the situations they create to trigger ego, anger, disillusionment and disappointment and doubt of all that I have faith in.
And it has become a life-saving situation for me for I find that many people in the spiritual line are as arrogant as those on others, or, may be even more, because they are not openly so and hence it’s even worse. I try to hold on to all that I expect to experience on the spiritual path ,but in vain.
This moment is one of those when the mind goes on rampage and seems to me to be all out to destroy all those divine thoughts, traits and tendencies that have been showered on me by You. I also know that the mind is as unpredictable as a monkey..
Hence, here goes my prayer
Oh! Why do you play with me so o Lord?
Why do you separate me from You time and again?
Aren’t You trying to wean me away too soon?
I am not even a toddler yet and You expect me to walk without your support?
Nay, Lord! Test me not so ruthlessly!
Umpteen times have I prayed to you
To keep my mind focused only on You every moment!
And not to let it wander here and there even for a fraction of a second
Whenever You give me my mind to control
It happens the other way around
It starts controlling me
And then it takes me wherever it wants to go
On its own without You to control it
It runs wild– unbridled and unsaddled
And gets stuck at the slightest obstacle
Maliciously erected by evil spirits
Such evil spirits as want to thwart my progress at any cost
For which purpose they invade some minds
That are those minds in destiny-relationships
And so also of those so-called kindred spirits on the path
Who test my faith , patience and perseverance beyond limits
Enough of this evil sport, O Lord!
Don’t ever let my mind stray away from You
May I sustain my faith
Even when surrounded by crises from all sides!
Pray let not bitterness, disgust and sorrow overcome me
And pray let not any external triggers kill my zest for life
Pray let not corrupt minds corrupt me as well
And pray let me not retreat my steps towards You
Pray let me not retreat my steps taken in lifetimes
Pray let not the selfishness of some I have to move with on the path
And pray not the arrogance of some who are with me on the path
Douse the enthusiasm in me and kill my spirit
For it’s even more disturbing and the harder to believe !
O Lord ! It’s painful that the the ones who are supposed to encourage
Create so much riot and confusion in the mind!
By their covetousness and discouraging words and actions
All done in jealousy on the path and a desperate effort to take all credit themselves!
O Lord! Let them take all the credit – who cares?
But let them not come in the way of other seekers on the path
Who sincerely want to contribute to Your work
It’s become so bad that I don’t get the opportunity to work with them
Or else working smoothly with them and enjoying it
Has become impossible!
A lot of subtle foul play happens
And team-work is just a sham – there’s no truth in it!
You may tell me “ the mind sees and experiences in this world whatever it carries within
May be so, may be not, in my case
I don’t know – You only know O Lord!
So pray dissolve my little mind in Yours for ever
Or bless me with the power to win over my little mind
So as not to be overcome by it
Anyway ,either way, it’s a win-win situation
For ,if the little mind takes over, You’ll come to save me!
And, if You bless me and empower me
To lord over my mind every moment
I can behold You in me every moment as me
So either way, You are with me…nothing else matters!
Pray make me so strong that nothing moves me out of my centre. Pray wave your Magic Wand over me and over all those around me, especially my so –called kith and kin and the co-seekers on the path. Pray bless me so that I get opportunities to do service in my vicinity and thus make life purposeful and blessed,